2.07am.
The lighted city

Downright.

I Don't Know What The Hell I Am Studying For.


fuck.,

Lord, i told you to help me not run away.

Ah. Sean Farris. lol, Valerie you have your Tom Kultz and all.

Besides Mike He, Finally. Sean Farris. Haha.

Do you ever feel like cursing hard when you see the digits rising and rising when you are seating in the cab during a big trffic jam and mother long red light.

I do.

Roar. Forget about the bucks. Its the fact that.. i tried shit to rush to the airport after church to meet at Changi Airport. Xiang Jie went New Zealand to studie._. Roar. And i didnt turn up at the last gathering as well. All i got to do was : race like some olympic around the Marde Big Changi Airport with three terminals-.- All i got to do was : run around with my loud 'clucking- slippers and getting stares because the airport is damn quiet. And all i got to do was: to talk to xiang jie on the phone. I mumbled ''pray everyday! And god bless.. and.....'' But i guess,. She didnt hear. Its not important what i say, but.. whats important is. I really wanted to see her. ''One last time''. Nice workout in Changi. Ran arond terminal two and overshot at terminal three. Darn.

Thanks Zhenyan, Alot. You answered what i asked for. This is the second time i see Zigen cry. And.. i really don't knw what to say. Lord, you replied me.

I wanted in my heart to hug Zhenyan and she came to do it straight away .( Man. I jjust just just received Zhenyan,*grins Msg! Coincidence or what! ) .

Eh.. aw. Roar. Then, i asked lord to show me l.ov.e. And straight away, the three of them as if of divine call , prayed for me. ! We were supposed to pray for one another. They were praying out loud in tongue.But, i mumbled. Then, suddenly they came closer to me. and prayed for me.me.

Their words.. They. They trust me! They believe in me. They prayed for me. Thanks,''sister! (:

My future, dreams and hopes are in your hands.

I believe in you cause you believe in me.

Mould my future. i am yours.


Never thought i post like this.

Change me ya baby.

Decided to go century square after an hour. Then, watched "Never back down.' Shrieked and screamed alot. heh. Love it . Esp Sean Farris. Immediately tried to rmbr his name once the credits came out.! Great show. Really. I wanna go kickboxing soon! real soon. Wished they didnt slang too much though. And the rest keep asking me why i laugh! I don't knowwwwwwwww. lol.

Show me what this life is about.

This is a call.

Who said she wanted to do her homwork today.

You only did one maths question during the advertisement of dou niu yao bu yao today Kristal.

back at 12.
Bed at 2.
Shag.

Lord, you catch me when i'm falling

''Dear girl, whatever will be will be will be.''. Papa said.

Dearest Diary:
First week of school is over, Booyeah. I feel a lil' tiny sense of accomplishment in me. ! *grins Completing homeworks and trying and trying. I hope i never cease to stop. Teacher's compliments, scoldings=wholepackage. Devoured a book it in a single gulp, read through the day.There came a part:

"'And what if it does'nt work out in the end?What if you try and end up falling?Why do it, then? '' ''Because we have to try,''
Ah, the reply sucks, but ya. You get what i mean.

This year, I suddenly love reading. Hoho. They bring me far far away,
I guess life is all about grasping the beat. Study, play & breathe life baby. Playing every moment to its fullest. Probably

I have been a veryvery happy girl this week! With the laughs, talks,incidences and games provoked .You people are the best damn things. Everything really seems to be falling into place. And i realized, : you know when you are really tired when you can yawn while bathing. Hehe. Fuck much?
Thogh the hapiness, i have to admit,Things are different. A whole lot? Sometimes i've been fighting hard yet sometimes when i stop to catch a breath, i start asking myself. WHY. Why do all these. And then, i start becoming ''intimidated; lol, kylie-.- And then, ya. Thinking brings me to ass places. ^^. Just that, yesterday. Suddenly i felt like i hold the weight of the world. Ah wong. Heh. Ku xiao bu de. Thanks............ You know you have been busy!._. You know it sucks. You know. you knowwwwwww.

Today was yet another fun day. Somethig diffrent. Unawared Changes are good. Ate noodles with Shija,Adrain and alll. They really make me laugh alot. And i like it! hehe. Its really nice to have guys around , you will.. feel protected, much. And taken well cared of. To the 6 of you. Thanks for being so honest-.-, shouting to me giving me my munchy doughnuts! ahahhaa. Funny.Telling me i should not walk at the alley and Jay offering to guard me with banana leaves.! Laughing your asses off when i told you'll i got spondge bob boxers from a long time ago, . Great time. ! .

What else.Sigh.
Today in class we had to do an experiment on science reflction. Each of us received a mirror.
ELGIN: I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I know the first thing sure kristal look at herself in the mirror one-.-
Lol. Good lah. Say so loud somemore. Heheeee.

And sometimes I can't mention how I really feel inside because I tend to forget stuff the moment I start typing. Like I hv so many things to say, and so many different people to talk to, but then again I feel like if I were to tell that someone how I really feel, things might change because life isn't that simple and if I say something I meant but it sounds all wrong, everything might change between us. Because life goes on but feelings dont. Wait I'm not making sense. At all. )

I shall just stop here!
Haha. Bebe, Fafa,Tiatia,ShanShan,Heahea,Jingjing, and i cannot rmbrr aahh. Dig it.

Kriskris.
Xoxo.

You will never see me,
till you are part of my life.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Hey all. Life has been great. Its been passing me through.
And i will try not to backspace what i am typing here.
I don't want to have second thoughts. hhhhaah.



I really feel like going for the missionary trip, and i really don'd mind saving hundreds to go. :D

Irritating, i feel bored of my blogskin already. Don;t know last time who say will not change the blogskin anymore because she wants to assure herself spending a whole day looking at codes is not a waste of time.

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This holiday is like action-packed.So, i really enjoyed myself i guess.
They say happy times past by very quickly, holidays are over in a matter of time so.. i guess i'd been happy.? Ah, shit. I am not making sense.

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And, i want to reply tags. But everytime i see the many accumulated, i.. ya la! Don't feel like already. Btwaaaaay, the song is forever-fireflight. And i will reply tags. Soon, Patience.

So many things left undonee leeh.
ah, shutup.

Deep down the valley

Today

Huiting and I at sg flyer. Jacq and I . My wallpaper.

In the cinema. At b.k,ecp longlongtimeagowith xin.
Played alot of games, won Rats But i won
A bigbig teddy bear!(: hehe. Alghter abt
20bucks spent. but, nice tim

Sososomanypikcures.
.

Where do i start.
Watched KunFu panda ytrday.
Funnnyy. hhee, Heard many kids laughing they were like ' hehehe!'
Make me even more want to 'Hahaae'.
Xiao dao.. hen shuang.
Watched withjacqbro,qixiang,jon.!(:


On the way home, we were talking about our horoscope, I am a lamb! I think.. hee. Then qixiang and jacq expressions were classic. HAHHAA. AND THIS YEAR CRISTMAS, I PINKYFINGERSWEAR THAT IT IS GOING TO BE FUN SHYT. whoa. Heh.

Haha. Theres No Special Ingredient.
--Fkplayrs.


Don't really know what to say. Shall just keep my mouth shut, YAA.
.
..
....
......
Renee,Haha. .
Forgotten atcually.
But, Luckillly.Got you to remember Leeh.! (:

Makka trend for you to rmbr evry c-h-rished 15th. Great.
Happy gas/les Partner Day .^^

Slept at 4am. and Kraven. Did you sleep! Hahaha. Imagine you at wildwild wet really fall down the slide, i laugh. Track at 8 was tiring but fun i gueess. 3hrs+ of sleep sucks. The sun sucks too.
Darn Hottttt. Then went to valerie's house. Played neopets. Haha. Eat instant noodles.. withegg!
lol,valerie. Ainiorh HAHAHA. Then you go '' i know''.-.- Then bang back to zero. lol. Back home slept whole day. Roar. Homework. !



Hello. [s]bye[/s]



-----Then i see you standing there,wanting more from me.And all i could do is try.
xoxo.



I can't decipher reflections from reality.

Holler back.Getting closure.

To you. all.

I either feel like deleting my blog or changing to livejournal

I need to catch myself.

I like to depend.

depend=childish.

but i still like.

But i will stop.

i will. ^^.

I can.

Hello, Just me

Today, was fun!.
Went to sit singapore flyer with mommy's side cousins. Ben lai wanted to sit at night, and was really looking forward to see stars and all. Then changed to morning. Buut, Still great! :D Took maany photos. Spent my last few mins on flyer talking to b.t! hehe. EHH. one min up there 1buck. Talk to you, not cheap leeh. But, its great to hear your voice again. lol.
Went to watch The incredible hulk too. Nice! And a lil funny (: AHH. So nice to have someone big carry you and protect you. the feellinnnnnnnngg. And, the hulk. his eyes. are.. i strared straight into it. So much feelings.
'GRRAAAH'. He went.


I learnt that the hardest thing to say is not i loveyou.sorry.thankyou.need/wantyou.or what.
But,

Byebye.

Hearing whispers that you no longer care.

So much to say
But where do I start
Would you listen if I spoke from the heart
It's simple things
That keep us apart
You know it doesn't have to be this way



So if I did something wrong please tell me,
I wanna understand.Cos I don't want this love to ever end.
But hell no. I am not standing here forever.
girls.

Don'tell me all these 'last min!' Its just...excuses.Nvrmind. It just cuts me open and make
my eyes burn. I demanded my tears to stay in.

Today, track was great.
(:

Tell me you'r here and you will watch over me forever.

Its easy.

Anyone who says sunshine brings hapiness
has never danced in the rain
-Joyce Perz.



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I'll make this work. Dreams will always be dreams unless you put them into action. Got this from shawn tan diary in primary school. haha.I'm Done with everything..esp. tryingJust to realised. why care so much. ?

It takes courage to make a fool of yourself. Always look at what you have left, not what you have lost.Oky, if you are cheying me or what now.-.- I just realised it now,. so what. its better than nothing!(:


If you love someone let it go,and if it comes back then thats how you know.
Ahhhh was pondering on this phrase today and it's so true.
Suddenly. Even what jiepin told me comes to mind:Its not your job to save the world and be superwoman,
I cannot remember the last part. But ya. I don't care about the past nor future.
I care. about the present.! (:


Above was Just a sudden thought.


So many things lately. I don't know where to start.
Right now, I'm asking myself : What am i willing to become?
Man. Before anything, i want to say :

Thanks Zigen. hehe. I'm not used to hear you being called Daniel, chicken!/: But, yeaah. talk about transformation. hahaha. And thanks for scaring me at the lift early in the morning and leaving me to scream . Hehe. Atcually, no. for picking me up! . Don't know how long never see each other already leeeh. Eeyer. But wl. You still have a foul mouth. Hahhaa. You great chicken. ! W/o a need to try being nice. Cause you are a natural. Like man, constant. Can weee go playground agaaainnnn._. Imagine you now, running. HAHA. train body onlly-.- biiiig deal. lol. Taller one head,skin nice shyt,,oldereeeer.,.Oh sheesh. Lol. EHHHH,nice shirt * looks at demi too. hhaha.

I'm not blinded anymore.Now i see things clearly, like.. pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer?Hehe. I love nick lachey and his lyrics. Anyway,yeah I don't know if its a good thing or bad. But, Yupp.Talk about crystal clear.

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Went to church ytrday.(by god's will---insight) hehe And. Man. What the preacher said, really hit me bulleyes.I mean.. Lyk... really.really. Abandon my heart, lift my hands up.
The whole church, youths were crying. I heard loud,uncontrollable cries and kneeeling on the floor burrying heads with our hands. was a sight. So surreal. My tears they just kept rushing, my eyes were burning. But hell no. Not some moaning session. It was... something,so much more. Aftr that, went to eat with a new group of people.! (:Hehe. Friendly. ! Sooo, yeeah. Quite enjoyable. And funny. But the thing is, everybody asked me to guess their age-.- Lol. 17.18,21+? Big people. !

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And Xinxin! hahaha.You came back. People counted down leeeh. hahaha.And kungfu panda,go create yourself in bangalore.The plane will have 4 wings. !Cause you are in it. yeeah.And,pengda. Talk about standing tall. HAHA. ''Wheres the kristal i used to know! '' really struck me hard, Soon. Soooooooooooooooon. Bet cha. Thanks.. ! And Stella stanely pauline! Lol,. Zz, The turtle plant. Atcually,almost. cha dian. I want to give other people already>/: Huixun, Novia. Still rmbred we said we see whose plant grow longer leeeh! :D Hhe. I havent' started planting my snowman. lol.

Today, After library, went aerobics room at valerie's&valenciea's! lol-.- Anywaaay,.Had fun! lol. EHHHH. Amanda.): you suddenly disappeared .


Thanks to the many for making me laugh so much infront of the screeen. HAHAHA. Even now, i am laughing away while typing . Hilarious. Kept having flasback. Haha.

只要笑一笑没什么大不了！:D

I will try

WLLLLLLLL.Here i am in the school's comp labb.And everybody's being ppiiiiiigggggs.EHHH I don't care. Comelater must draw pig on hand.Deal.I got markers. Red,blue,yellow,green,orange,peach,black,brown.All also got!Haha.Brought markers to do lorna b'day card.lol.Mann.Onnly got 4 freaking people here.But,hahaha. The music's playing loud on the speaker.Oky, know what.I cannot find the speaker.And the thing is,i don't know how to lower the volume.thats why very loud-.-
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lol. Zz. As i'm typing, i'm getting sleepier again. Man. And the two people incharge also not here.__. YANZHOU. You should'nt have told me about the school comp lab. (heh) Tmd. Bored shyt. Today, is...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORNA ASTRONOMO CARAS.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

GROW OLDER ALREAADY.

LORNA JIE JIE. HAHAHAHHA.

HOW ABOUT AUNTIE LORNA FOR A CHANGE?

NAAAAAAH :D

Yesterday at 12am+++. Went into the room, jumped on her and screamed

'' HAAPPPY BIRTHDAY' Then someone go'' i waaaant to sleeeeppppp'and cover the blanket over her._. Zz. So much for being the first to wish her.lol.I somemore so happy,go out and ''HAHAHA.KELVIN TAN.I FIRST TO WISH LORNA LEEH.'Then mummy came out to nag.

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Oky,another guy came into the lab again.Man.How i long to hear a high pitch voice.lol.

Man.What am i doing here._.OH YA.I AM HERE TO HELP BOTH OF YOU LEEEEHH.

WL.I COULD HAVE BEEN SLEEPING STILL._.AW MAN.Hehe.EHHH.so please come soooon./:Thanks lord for the computer. for the internet. for the music.hehe.

* guys infront just turned on their music. wl. fight with me!

COMPUTER VS PHONEE LEEH. hahaha.

Self-start battle.

I can write a thousands songs to comprehend--I can make you stay. but, Man,song went to fast.
I can't catch up to type out the lyrics.Hehe.

This register38 light-producing white box is boring-ing me.

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*Another guy came in. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

OIOIOIOI. And ''zhen de zhen de zhu'' just smsed me''Lunch how?'' lol. EHHHHHH.-.-

And the ''bigger pig'' just smsed me ''omg... I am the real pig'' Lol.

BOTH OF YOU JUST MAKE ME SMILE TO MYSELF ON THE SPOT.

Baby we are invincible.

This-kneeland. is gone. Changed. To... I havent think yet. Don't even want to go there.

If i can take this words and fill it up with air.

I fly you to the moon so we can disappear.

I'm trusting you and i'm taking the long way home.

I know theres something strong. And baby we are invincible---

Livin' in a world with no air

You don't try to change me.
Love me for me.


The charm of life is in fully preserving that childish asepct.For only in that way we will face setbacks more easily, and more optismitically.When i look in the mirror,I see a person who looks to the older, to give me adivce.Who's afraid of making decision,for fear that i might fall.I cannot bear to lose anything.The mirror also reaveals a child.I am a child,I want to be a child forever. ! ^^I never want my eyes to stop shining.I always want to have a smile for life.
I will never . Ever. Let the child in me Die.

I suddenly know..where i want to head to. My goal. ''And she scores!'' whoo. Hee.

I'm not giving in easily.
Once in a lifetime,
that means theres no second chance.
Get it? (:

Gotta make a getaway!~

Ilovepoppingbubblestoblowingbubbles. ! (:

Yay I came back from cameron!!Woa.The trip was..enjoyable!Hehe.And i didnt realised how naturally it brought away my load.I felt so light at those moments up in the mountain! ~.Till i came back home and it seemed like a total freefall out of the sky.Came back with mom telling me i was a horrible person.Haha.Today i've been laughing at mommy like shit,The anger and irritation generated by her constant nagging tickled me.Till i banged my head on the car door. She has great stamina,i tell you.Everybody who went to Cameron were great!Seemed like a big family on tour. Hehe.

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Those were the days...

Liangyi.!Haha. Even though you left me countless times for Darr----. ! You're still good laa. Hahaha. Got to know you more. And man, You are atucally funny too.Slept alot in the bus cause i slept at 3+ the day before. !hehe.Woke up in time to see the guys stand in a damn-straight-line outside to pee.Hahaha. And when i got th picture below taken.The smoke seemed so near yet so far. Was really excited at first when i thought it was.. real clouds. Hehe. Anywaaay. The view was veryvery nice.We were gettin higher and higher up and the scenery seemed so out-from-the-book.

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Nice ayee. Took many photos of the views but.. Heck.(;

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We were getting bored so.. Liangyi took out her sketchbook and she drew mee! hahaha.

Sweet. ''What a big smile i havee. Hhahaa.说我笑得可以，

This sketch's done by Daphne way back at Kota Tinggi. Hahaha. She took.. half and hour perhaps. Hehehe. Got people queque up one okay. ! :D

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The hotel gave me.. a warm feeling! hehe. As in, Not those kinda' cold and strange.. unfamilliar feel i guess.Anywaaay.Yeah man. Liangyi And Daarrr-pulled out the sofa and chair to the balcanony to scream across to each other at night! Alright. Just that.. i was sleeping at th mini-bed! Then.. the door and window was wideopen and liangyi hand was holding onto the door,
so no mtr how hard i try to close, also cannot close. cause she feared that i will lock her out like how the guys did to Darrr----.-Ben lai. I thought it was quite sweet one._. Then the wind kept blowin. My feet were numb shit. But.. i told myself. '' Nehmind kristal, You cannot enjoy this in singapore.Butt. It was quite shuang and bearable ! (: Hehe. Aircon evryday,everywhere. Nicenice. Had good sleeps for the two nights! Liangyi said that i screamed something though.

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Hahhaa. You two who had holes in your shoes! :D Novia and Huixun! Reallly had alot of fun. Screaming our lungs out high up in the rose farm,hearing our screams echoe back and then giggling away. Talking about all sorts of things! hehe. The dirty toilets which freaked us out and made me laugh big time. Eating ice cream and being the last three countless times to report back. And wanting to race with you'll back to the bus, how we started out so strong but ended up racing with panda, Hahhaa. Running against the wind in the cool air really brought me back. Searching for the jagong bakaar at the night market. Laauughon.! (:

Loveeethisalooot. At rose farm, Boyy, there were many kinds of colourful wonderfu flowers.

Down below the view is breath-taking .

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At th boh teee thing. They'll get you staring at it for ages. The view is beautiful.
Hehee. And how we all climbed into the back of th truck so quickly! Lovee sitting there. When i grow up, I confirm buy a topless car.


Attemting to be early for the first time round, but ended up a lil too early! hahhaha.
Played uno and daidi in the bus. The second night, lotslots of people came to our room,123! Hehe. Got irked yet amused yet entertained by the game i taught! hehe. Losers get to drink a mixture made with mostly coffeee. Blindmice was great too. Till' suddenly th kick died off and th teachers came to spot check. Whatever.

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Thanks for your strawberries and all ! Hehe. Though you warned me they might get squashed and only gave them to me at the last part of the trip, the strawberries became juice when i went home ._. Oky, Not good.

The last stop of e whole trip. Sarah ( i used to think your atcual name was sarahahha leeh._.) Heee. And the two hands sticking out from her head, Panda's. Nadzirah, me and Yasmeen.! Water was cool.
The company were great.had fun. Was boring at times. But still fun.!

哈哈。Watched indianna jones with Valerie and bro ytrday. I think ihelp to create a lot
Of sound effects in the cinema leeh. Hahahaha. Not funny.. I think.. like.. really quite funny leh! Then funny, wa, even funnier! Hehehe,so laugh louder. Scary part, I screamed and hide._.
Hehhee. Nice, actionpacked movie! But. I don’t really understand the story. Like abit luan.
Anywaay. Still great! (: Pictures next time.

Came back from ecp with xin few hours ago. Hehe. Update more next time.. lazzy.

And kraven! hehe, atcually, I blog untill damn lifeless. Then you invite me to minesweeper my spirit suddenly lifted up like shit! hahaha,. Oky. though i lost two times so far._. But. Anywaaay. Ehem.Practise laa. More practise will be better one, Hhehe.,

Reminds me of how i used to play with crystal and sally during primary school days! And i always ''REMATCH,REMATCH.REMATCH. heeeh. Abit sore loser like that leh._. buuuutt. They two always 奉陪到底. Time killer! (:





And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast
No lingering voices, no ghosts from the past
Just a cluster of walls,
and a window of pain
Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain


3.01am

Baby that came out well.

Hold your words cause talk is cheap.
Goognight world.
Nights to mummy,daddy,lorna.
And bro at chalet.( See, nice today. cause you left the comb behind for me._.)



Paul asked me ''why you always seem so happy and yet so sad at times? is it really hard to be stuck between $&&^%$# '' Whoa.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty6XkY3O7b8 ! (:

then go see what i've done by her too.
I... She. Another singer who.. can.. make.. me.. who.. can. touch me.

Heart out of Ryhtm

The Grass seems Greener.

The weather getting hotter.

Watched "What Happens In Vegas",and Boy,It was good.Really worth it!hehe.The seats sucks though.Felt like i was sinking.The last part where joy told jjack that she did not need to pretend and be scared nor try to live up to his expecations was heartwrenching,i cried.
Notgoodenuf?Man.I cried in a comedy but didnt even felt a tinge of sadness for
'Sky of love.' Heeh.I would love to have a place where i could..escape to.Wo de di pan!.Hee. Some beach,perhaps,Some day.



School rocks today.Big time.Ytrday too atcually. Really wanted to try every game but huang meng( i owe you a blue balloon! ) (: Shuo hua suan hua! hehe. was so keen on selling the Melted mars bars with cornflakes-.- Hehe. Soooo, I went on to sell french fries! Which i suck totally at laaaaa.Marde,went 3 big rounds around the canteen with Daphne and shouting ' $1.20!' was a failuire, hahaha. Laughed lyk shit.Many many many funny things happened! Hehe. The fries were halfcooked and the toppings were just added on based on my likings. Now, seeing fries make me.. sick.After seeing how darius cooked them! Hoho. Initially i thought staying at the stall wul'd turn out a load of trash but whoa I had fun~ "Who says you can't have fun while working?" Totally agree. .
Heh. We tried catching..fishes, tumbling cans, and ya.. explored. ! .

Went back to class and was high lyk shit.Hehee.Balllooooons rock.My balloon flied(._.) flew! up causing the whole class to high also! Hahahha.Time past so quickly. Played sosoososo much, jumping on tables heh,. and trying to bring down the balloons the guys delibrately let go off,was crazzeeh. Laugh till my stomach hurts, Damn. Adrain-.- Hahahhaa.



Everybody went to china.
That reminds me. Havent started packing for Cameron.
I.. don';t. I.. Abit. Lazy leh. /:
Don't feel like moving,let alone go to another country.


Beautiful Disaster and some like it hot are veryverryvery nice books! hehe.

Sickening fact : that we can't control our dreams'. I don't want nightmares!!! ):
Getting chased around by some woman who can fly and wearing 'heroine' clothes in and out of the library is not nice at all!

Kicking away my thoughts.

-- You. Twofaceperson. (scary monster! .)

and you. coward.(ask me directly if you have yur doubts! )

The Fish said to The Sea, "You can't feel my tears coz im in the sea."
The Sea replied, "I can feel your tears coz youre in my heart."

Don't you think its just.. awwwwwww sweeet?
Miss these kinda' words.

Not a girl not yet a woman! ' Mann. I miz this song.
Hehe.

i need faith, of at least a mustard seed.

Hope's still lurking, Arse, i hope its true.

I am okay!

Why do i strive to be strong everytime i've fallen?
Guess thats just the way it goes?!
Hehe, I am very happy now!

简简单单就好。
这样的过日子也蛋不错.

A better man.

Went to singapore post 'rooftop' today. K, Walked to singapore post. I enjoy every min i'm walking now. Used to think it was tiring, But now. Really lovin' it.! heeeh. Then, go up and down the lift, but cannot find the 'top' -.- Scaaarrrry. But. fun! hehehe. So settled with Coffeebean. The wind only came when we were about to leave-.- Nvrmind. Butter then none! hehe. The moon was big and round. That was when i thought of you B.t. ''Wish upon th moon''. Was what you always told me.

Xinxin,勾勾手指了,不会反悔。! hehe.

''you?'me?'youu?no,me. youu? hahahahha.

Xie xie ni! For tonight. (:

Staying Strong.

I took in everything everybody said. I learnt. And i am growing from here.

I don't care about what happened in the past anymore. I don't care. Its a whole new pair of Wings i have now. I am going to fly. soar higher then before. Not trapping myself on the ground now. I promise myself.

One point you're out of focus, you can't dig it anymore. Still, an occassional meditating on such a another dimensional view allows me to reflect. Reflect and change. Reflect and reduce the defenceful front. Reflect and withdraw.~

Yeah. I am not going to say anything to hold you back anymore.

Cuz. I was told to stop the torturing to let go.

Don't want to cause so much hurt or sadness to someone.

It was never ever my intention.

Not going..to. Show. Any sign of.. anything..

Cause i'd rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry
You'd never ask me why, my heart is so disguised.
Along with it the tune my heart cries.
I can relate to every single song on my playlist.
Maybe fate`ll bring us back together again someday.


I always swore to you i never fall apart.Mommy. Sorry.
And bending over backwards
just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laugh

Aloha Means Family. Family Means Nobody Gets Left Behind.

These laces are untied

i can't believe you.

Dig my heart out if you must.

And feel how i feel.Maybe then. You will understand.