Gimmemre.

nothing seems to be the way

that it used to.

evryth seems shallow,

lord giveme truth.

I'd think i give up.

On evrything.

Evry single tiny fking thing there is.

Matters can get lost.

Its just so tiresome to feel evryth al' at once.

So maybe, i choose ignorance.

i hate how my energy get drained over the littlest things.

i dont want to feel anyything anymore.

Theres a hole in my chest, where my heart used to be.

just yanked it out, & threw it away.

Job well done, kristal.

21st was huimin's b'day.

i forgot.

How could i.

damn.

& huimin taught me karma.

yupp. After al` that happened, i kinda believe.

What goes around comes ard aye?

And on the 21st, i had badbad case of gastric.

How come timing so perfect one.

disgusting lars.

Of all days, the day we supposed to celebrate than pain.

Stupid stomach,.

I got alot of thanks to give out though[: heh.

Thanks vinnie for carrying my bag.

Thanks kylie for Sheltering me with umbrella? hahaha.

Thanks Nikki for your shoulder to hang on to? lol.

Thanks poh yee, & i dontknow who dont know who.

heh. As long as you got help me, thanks.[:

& specially bastard![:

For your super super good umbrella ! hahahha.

Go change la.

For trying to catch me in case i fall-.-

Dont know what kind of protection.

heh. 5 stars?

& laughing like shit when kylie umbrella flew away.

hhahahhaa.

Then stopped halfway outside some house,

cause i couldnt freakin` hear a thing.

scary.

At least made it to piazza hut to see huimin!

big big accomplishment.

heh,

Then the four of us sit outside pizza hut.

force me eat.

Pizza hut was supposed to be nice,

but that time 觉得特别的恶心/:

I hate the hypocrisy of it all.

I need faith,

When I trample, who will pick me up and tend to my wound?

In fact, now I believe. No one,.

cause,

you'e not you anymore.

she's not she anymore.

he's not him anymore.

so am i not me anymore?

i dont know.

yes, i rmbred, kristal. you gave up.

On ervything,.

My mood now fits- Cry, by rihanna.

My mind is gone,

i'm spinning round.

And deep inside,

my tears i'll drown.

I'm losing grip, what's happening

And it cut me like a knife

Now i'm, in this condition

And i've, got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry

但我知道要放开没有我想象中那么简单.

我好差哦!