Ytrday, I got very desperate.
I wanted to wish on a star.
But, it was a starless night.

I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel and hurt.. others.I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I learnt that if you expect so much, you'll only get dissapointment in the end.
Nothing else.



You're a great pigu who always succeed in consoling, but now what about yourself?
I just feel.. this. I only know you through your motivations, through your words. so fascinated by them. its about words aint it? , So maybe, you are right,. I don't know th littlelest things about you. You get very scary, when you are angry. Scary. Not fightening.I just.. get scared. Thats why a lil part of me is gaurding .You always aim to make sure i am happy ! I like that.! But i don't want that. Sometimes.. When i fall, i just want to pick myself up and not let people create a big fuss over it. Cuz then i'll only feel weak. I will depend. I will not fight. Not everything needs to be said out loud to feel better! I want to stand on my own. ! I rather the people around me to give me motivations to stand up and pick me up when i really cry out for help ! I am happy ! . I brush things off my mind easily ! Its just me ! And i get happy easily ! So no need to brood over sad things ! If i got one sad thing, One happy thing can instantly make me happy ! And the misery is gone. Thats why its not that i don't want to say out ! Not that i don't want to tell you anything. I can tell you so many things lyk a storeybook! Its so fake. to be there for someone, to make them happy only,. ! Maybe.. I just got angry. Not at you. But at myself ! For letting a weekend past by me lyk this with only thoughts of friday ! . Cuz, I feel lyk i am drowning in thoughts of you. ! Feel so uselz. ); 我已经试着让眼泪别往下流了。 Your dream rocks. Heh. So, I juz want everything to stay this way. To look at clouds. clear blueskies. enjoy the wind. And look at leaves falling. And talk about anything. And its amazing how you can make a voideck lyk disneyland! I don't need to say sad things infront of you. cuz its all gone the min you are around! Just lyk how stella, xinxin and keith makes me feel ! (: Ni men si ge hen li hai. Jiu shi zhe yang !. Suddenly. I am at a loss for words cuz i feel terrible.
--The end.

ps; Don't ever leave me alone,behind. Don;t talk about.. giving up on me!
. Everyone of you., I need all of you. Fate, Don't play a fool on me. Its not funny.


Tell me a story,where we all change.And we'd live our lives together, Sitting in the cheap seats underneath the starsI'm heading back to base, I'll drop you off at Mars.I'm sure I know your face or what star you're fromI try to make conversation but I'm too far gone

Sorry gorgor, i stoled your blog song.
I know you are going to get pissed hearing this. heh.
But,. . . Zz. Juz get well soon too .
--Promise of a lifetime.

Should you grieve the passing of another weekend; Think of the woman in dire straits, working twelve hours a day, seven days a week to feed her children. KristalTan/