我怕迷路

i love slammed doors.
i love slamming doors.
do with that.
those wooden doors at home are gna fall anytime.
bang.

you dont think i'm trying??
you think i dnt wnt to do well too?
please.
i want to alright!
you dont know it woman.
you just freakin` blame evryth to me.
all the freakin` time.
damn.
what do you think hurs.
that i didnt try hard enough?
maybe i didnt.
but i am.
stop whatever freakin` blaming you are doing right now all right.
i want to be fifial.
i dnt ever want you to lose my respect .!
okaay.
so please, before i ever did.
try to at leaast think.
nobody's perfect woman.
dnt push al` the blames to me.
& you wont even let yourself feel apolegetic.
i've been trying okay!
trying to get your attention.
turning down dates with girl. f to spend time with you.
casue' you & idont have much time tghter.
& i get all these shit?
i knw its been hard on you.
but what abt me?
ask yourself.
when will you evr spare a thought for me.
me!
forgetit`.
i'm not gna give up okay?
i'm gna freakin` prove you wrong.
& gna get btr grades than those you compared me to.
yearh, you can stop competing.
they get rank 14?
i get rank13.
how abt that?
hurs.
even when i improved, you never ever at least, make me feel its worth it.
yearh, you dnt scold me for my bad grades.
thks alot.
but,, then.
wont it mount to the same thing?

man,
wait till` i find a good tuition teacher-.-

so please, i'm trying.
& i hope you freakin` feel it;

i'moverit.`