我到地哭什麼 哭什麼;

i'mstrongyeah.

stronger than your popeye ya, xin?

xoxo--.

& i'm bothered.











byyou.

toughlife.toughlife.toughlifee.

& stormy days are over!~
the days of ache,pain.depression.& evryth bad you could think of.
at least..
they lessen quite alot![:

i thought i was never,evr gna get out of it.
its like..
an endless road.
withought light.
its likee...
a black big blanket got me covered.
and no mtr how hard i try to find the end of the banklet, i coundnt.
its like..
i was lost in a big maze at night.


& now i see the light that shines.
that shimmer.
& i'm happy.
cause' at least, it isnt so dark anymore.
semi-darkness is fine.
cause' total darkness is terrifying.
it really is.
& i'm just happy i got that sunshine to shine.
for me[:

its still dark though,
but i believe,
one fine day,
evryth will soon be okay[;

though i know how tough its gna be now.
though i'm quite beat & tired & sticky & whaaaat.ever.
i'm still oh-so-fine[:

hees.
things are better now.
& as i'm blogging,
i'm missing my fking waywaylove draaama~!
roars!
first episode nehs.

okaaaay, i'm gna bath now.
i got a stinky record of not bathing for 4 days leh.
hehs.--
lazy.lazy.lazy.
no, maybe 3?
ANYWAAAAAAAAAAY.

i'mlovin`it.~
i rly hope deaar lord,that nth will change.
fereworst/:


{:

wake up.

WAKE UP KRISTAL.wake up.wont you?

tough life.click!

and in bus 21, which i ran after,

i thought.and thought.and thought.

No window seat this time.

No taking out of my mp to change songs.

i just let it playon&playon.

& when it played such a high song.

i felt oh-s.o-low.

welcome to the real. world.

i aint giving up.

i wont break down.

sonner then it seems life turns ard.

& i will be strong even if it all goes wrong.

and when i'm standing in the dark, i'll still believe.

someones watching over me.

toughlife./;

the memories and the pain of the heart i know.

wish that i could cry.

fall on my kness.

even heros have the right to bleed.

fu lao shi; the rock[:
--whom i can stand upon
hees.
thks fer` your preaching;
rly helped.
& sorry that i cant help but just cry&cry.):
but, you dont seem surprised.><
even when you tried to tell me joke,to cheer me up-.-
stupidme.
& girl.fs for being thre;[:

valerie,valencia & amanda came today[:
mann.i laughed so hard;
playedcards.hangedoutattheplayground;(!!!.)
& i'm back.
time seems super fast with'em.
iloveeeplaygrounds.
digthis.

wildwildwild.
i miss'em.
zigen,terrence,audi,demi,derrick,kailin/qin,gayatthri,ricky,those dogs.
those times.[:

--rewindbacktothepast.
pretty please?
):

dad's not in singapore anymre.
& i rlyrlryrlyrly wnt to get my hair dyed soon.
maaaybe, after i come back from overseas?
i rly dont know/:
all i know is, i'm darn envoius of pig xin.-.-
boohoo.
brownred? red? chestnut brown?
i dnt knw what suits me.`!
opinions?
hees.

& i realised i got soo many things i wnt to do this holiday.
anther boohoo.`~
well, i rlydont knw what i wan.t
reallyreally d ont.
& this sucks. big time.

job people didnt contact me till` now.
nojob=nomoneeeey=nothing.$

there gta be mre tolife.
thislifeissooverated.
everyth seems shallow.
god give me thruth.
& in me.
thats all i'm praying that someday.i will understand.
the walls just disappear.
nth to surround me,
keep me from my fears.
i'm unprotected.
never felt like this before..
this life is like a game sometimes.

--xoxo.

我怕迷路

i love slammed doors.
i love slamming doors.
do with that.
those wooden doors at home are gna fall anytime.
bang.

you dont think i'm trying??
you think i dnt wnt to do well too?
please.
i want to alright!
you dont know it woman.
you just freakin` blame evryth to me.
all the freakin` time.
damn.
what do you think hurs.
that i didnt try hard enough?
maybe i didnt.
but i am.
stop whatever freakin` blaming you are doing right now all right.
i want to be fifial.
i dnt ever want you to lose my respect .!
okaay.
so please, before i ever did.
try to at leaast think.
nobody's perfect woman.
dnt push al` the blames to me.
& you wont even let yourself feel apolegetic.
i've been trying okay!
trying to get your attention.
turning down dates with girl. f to spend time with you.
casue' you & idont have much time tghter.
& i get all these shit?
i knw its been hard on you.
but what abt me?
ask yourself.
when will you evr spare a thought for me.
me!
forgetit`.
i'm not gna give up okay?
i'm gna freakin` prove you wrong.
& gna get btr grades than those you compared me to.
yearh, you can stop competing.
they get rank 14?
i get rank13.
how abt that?
hurs.
even when i improved, you never ever at least, make me feel its worth it.
yearh, you dnt scold me for my bad grades.
thks alot.
but,, then.
wont it mount to the same thing?

man,
wait till` i find a good tuition teacher-.-

so please, i'm trying.
& i hope you freakin` feel it;

i'moverit.`

to make the great escape

& lets make the great escape[;

to..escape;
bleahs.
low people makes lower people.

photos will be uploaded sooon!

sorrry fer` short post.

will update this when i aint so lazy.

A cinderalla story

First time updating blog withouht being told to[:
got improve lurhurs?
notbadnotbad;
hees.

i hate maths.
MAths
MAke
Me'
MAd.):
roars.~`

&valenciaaavalerieee, you still owe me maths tuition[:
keehees;
mann, i get so despo./:
oh welleys.

And Grace koh got me hooked up on the A--list noveles[;
surprisesurprise.
catch me reaading;`[;
atcually, i owe you a t.h.a.n.ks girl.x)

ps: be carefull laa; dont lose your wallet again-.-

aww. bb rocks[;
loveeee.
hehs.
funfun.

manymany things linedd upp.
just realised that my blog has only wordsandwordsandwordsandwords.(!)
no pictures.
no nothing.
just words.
& mann, i must have bored youu people to death;/:

okokaaay. next post maybe[;

going escape tmrw.
& out at night on monday[;
cannntt wait`.
rlyrlyrlrylrlyrly cant loh.

i loveeeee e nightlife`x)
butt.. ( _________________________ )
yearh.
hehs.
& you dont have to count how many dashes there are or anyth.
cause;' i just errr. hurr. randomly stop laa hor.
hehs.`
catching the night movie, i guess?
booyeeah[;

xoxo.


a cinderalla story.

Now you know.---
cause' waiting fer` you is like waiting fer` rain in this drought.
useless&disappointing.
late for reality.
fantasy--
half the night,
i waste in sighs.

start from where lehs;
i dnt really knw.

dramaas are lovee[;
mann, i cried like shit.
todays' e last episode to the drama i've been watching.
so darn contradicting,.
again--
its like...
wna knw the ending,
but, dnt wnt it to end.
cause' i'm gna miss it like shit.

--haaah; like a child misses her blanket[:

valerie & valencia & amanda camee[;
atmosphere somehow's diff.):
idontknoww.
but all i knw is, i really wnt the old days back.//

--& like a child misses her blanket[:

currently playing on my playlisty : would you be there.

):mann,
idontknww..
so many million things running through this peabrain of minee.
eeks.
its gna explode soonner or later.
miss those days when everything was much much simper[;

--& like a child misses her blacnket{:

eeks.
& the song playing now: --( i dont knw what hell of a tiltle this is )

// goes; i'm happy & i knw it makes you sad.
if sthsth was a dream, i be in love with dreaming.//
okaay, whats with this.

just chuck that part up there away.
hees.

valerie & valencia are having tennis now[;
rememebred how we used to..
do evry single thing tghter[:
went to watch the GAMEPLAN yesterday.
notbadd[:
atcually, it was really good[:
4.5 starss!
hees.
laughed so much.
& there was a woman in the cinema whose laugh was so darn fking funny[:
haaah. it was so.ooo. oo high pitch;
then i cannot tahan alrdy.
then kept laughing too.
hehs.
people with contagious laugh~
steelaaaaaa![:
hees.

went to wanzhuo's aunt hse fer haircur;
hees. thks wanzhuo[:
ate pizzahut, went arcade, walked ard, & drooped those phone on display.
heehs, the sales asst. had that face that makes me just wna laugh.
okaaay. wanzhuo, dnt saadd!
its just --bad hair day period!
& know what?
there are people with much much sucky hair,!'
youknwyouknwyouknw.
soo,aiyoyo, dnt knw what to say/:
i'm a darn bad comforter.
just..dnt brood over this too much alrightt!
everyth's gna be back to norm. sooner or later.[:
~~xoxo.


now playing on playist: there with you.

-- i love you with your disguise,
you've proven that love is blind.
there are no ans. i find.
to stop the tears from my eyes.
now evryth looks black & white,
you've taken away clear blue skies.
though, its time to go.
-----------------------------------
i cant restrain you from your lies.
the fear of ever losing you has finally come through,


R.A.I.N.B.O.W.s are beautiful.[: