Saturday, May 31, 2008

Gotta make a getaway!~

Ilovepoppingbubblestoblowingbubbles. ! (:

Yay I came back from cameron!!Woa.The trip was..enjoyable!Hehe.And i didnt realised how naturally it brought away my load.I felt so light at those moments up in the mountain! ~.Till i came back home and it seemed like a total freefall out of the sky.Came back with mom telling me i was a horrible person.Haha.Today i've been laughing at mommy like shit,The anger and irritation generated by her constant nagging tickled me.Till i banged my head on the car door. She has great stamina,i tell you.Everybody who went to Cameron were great!Seemed like a big family on tour. Hehe.

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Those were the days...


Liangyi.!Haha. Even though you left me countless times for Darr----. ! You're still good laa. Hahaha. Got to know you more. And man, You are atucally funny too.Slept alot in the bus cause i slept at 3+ the day before. !hehe.Woke up in time to see the guys stand in a damn-straight-line outside to pee.Hahaha. And when i got th picture below taken.The smoke seemed so near yet so far. Was really excited at first when i thought it was.. real clouds. Hehe. Anywaaay. The view was veryvery nice.We were gettin higher and higher up and the scenery seemed so out-from-the-book.

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Nice ayee. Took many photos of the views but.. Heck.(;

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We were getting bored so.. Liangyi took out her sketchbook and she drew mee! hahaha.

Sweet. ''What a big smile i havee. Hhahaa.说我笑得可以,


This sketch's done by Daphne way back at Kota Tinggi. Hahaha. She took.. half and hour perhaps. Hehehe. Got people queque up one okay. ! :D

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The hotel gave me.. a warm feeling! hehe. As in, Not those kinda' cold and strange.. unfamilliar feel i guess.Anywaaay.Yeah man. Liangyi And Daarrr-pulled out the sofa and chair to the balcanony to scream across to each other at night! Alright. Just that.. i was sleeping at th mini-bed! Then.. the door and window was wideopen and liangyi hand was holding onto the door,
so no mtr how hard i try to close, also cannot close. cause she feared that i will lock her out like how the guys did to Darrr----.-Ben lai. I thought it was quite sweet one._. Then the wind kept blowin. My feet were numb shit. But.. i told myself. '' Nehmind kristal, You cannot enjoy this in singapore.Butt. It was quite shuang and bearable ! (: Hehe. Aircon evryday,everywhere. Nicenice. Had good sleeps for the two nights! Liangyi said that i screamed something though.








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Hahhaa. You two who had holes in your shoes! :D Novia and Huixun! Reallly had alot of fun. Screaming our lungs out high up in the rose farm,hearing our screams echoe back and then giggling away. Talking about all sorts of things! hehe. The dirty toilets which freaked us out and made me laugh big time. Eating ice cream and being the last three countless times to report back. And wanting to race with you'll back to the bus, how we started out so strong but ended up racing with panda, Hahhaa. Running against the wind in the cool air really brought me back. Searching for the jagong bakaar at the night market. Laauughon.! (:




Loveeethisalooot. At rose farm, Boyy, there were many kinds of colourful wonderfu flowers.

Down below the view is breath-taking .

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At th boh teee thing. They'll get you staring at it for ages. The view is beautiful.
Hehee. And how we all climbed into the back of th truck so quickly! Lovee sitting there. When i grow up, I confirm buy a topless car.


Attemting to be early for the first time round, but ended up a lil too early! hahhaha.
Played uno and daidi in the bus. The second night, lotslots of people came to our room,123! Hehe. Got irked yet amused yet entertained by the game i taught! hehe. Losers get to drink a mixture made with mostly coffeee. Blindmice was great too. Till' suddenly th kick died off and th teachers came to spot check. Whatever.

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Thanks for your strawberries and all ! Hehe. Though you warned me they might get squashed and only gave them to me at the last part of the trip, the strawberries became juice when i went home ._. Oky, Not good.



The last stop of e whole trip. Sarah ( i used to think your atcual name was sarahahha leeh._.) Heee. And the two hands sticking out from her head, Panda's. Nadzirah, me and Yasmeen.! Water was cool.
The company were great.had fun. Was boring at times. But still fun.!

哈哈。Watched indianna jones with Valerie and bro ytrday. I think ihelp to create a lot
Of sound effects in the cinema leeh. Hahahaha. Not funny.. I think.. like.. really quite funny leh! Then funny, wa, even funnier! Hehehe,so laugh louder. Scary part, I screamed and hide._.
Hehhee. Nice, actionpacked movie! But. I don’t really understand the story. Like abit luan.
Anywaay. Still great! (: Pictures next time.

Came back from ecp with xin few hours ago. Hehe. Update more next time.. lazzy.

And kraven! hehe, atcually, I blog untill damn lifeless. Then you invite me to minesweeper my spirit suddenly lifted up like shit! hahaha,. Oky. though i lost two times so far._. But. Anywaaay. Ehem.Practise laa. More practise will be better one, Hhehe.,

Reminds me of how i used to play with crystal and sally during primary school days! And i always ''REMATCH,REMATCH.REMATCH. heeeh. Abit sore loser like that leh._. buuuutt. They two always 奉陪到底. Time killer! (:





And there in your doorway, no shadow is cast
No lingering voices, no ghosts from the past
Just a cluster of walls,
and a window of pain
Collecting the heartache like droplets of rain



3.01am

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Baby that came out well.

Hold your words cause talk is cheap.
Goognight world.
Nights to mummy,daddy,lorna.
And bro at chalet.( See, nice today. cause you left the comb behind for me._.)



Paul asked me ''why you always seem so happy and yet so sad at times? is it really hard to be stuck between $&&^%$# '' Whoa.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty6XkY3O7b8 ! (:

then go see what i've done by her too.
I... She. Another singer who.. can.. make.. me.. who.. can. touch me.

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Heart out of Ryhtm




The Grass seems Greener.
The weather getting hotter.



Watched "What Happens In Vegas",and Boy,It was good.Really worth it!hehe.The seats sucks though.Felt like i was sinking.The last part where joy told jjack that she did not need to pretend and be scared nor try to live up to his expecations was heartwrenching,i cried.
Notgoodenuf?Man.I cried in a comedy but didnt even felt a tinge of sadness for
'Sky of love.' Heeh.I would love to have a place where i could..escape to.Wo de di pan!.Hee. Some beach,perhaps,Some day.



School rocks today.Big time.Ytrday too atcually. Really wanted to try every game but huang meng( i owe you a blue balloon! ) (: Shuo hua suan hua! hehe. was so keen on selling the Melted mars bars with cornflakes-.- Hehe. Soooo, I went on to sell french fries! Which i suck totally at laaaaa.Marde,went 3 big rounds around the canteen with Daphne and shouting ' $1.20!' was a failuire, hahaha. Laughed lyk shit.Many many many funny things happened! Hehe. The fries were halfcooked and the toppings were just added on based on my likings. Now, seeing fries make me.. sick.After seeing how darius cooked them! Hoho. Initially i thought staying at the stall wul'd turn out a load of trash but whoa I had fun~ "Who says you can't have fun while working?" Totally agree. .
Heh. We tried catching..fishes, tumbling cans, and ya.. explored. ! .

Went back to class and was high lyk shit.Hehee.Balllooooons rock.My balloon flied(._.) flew! up causing the whole class to high also! Hahahha.Time past so quickly. Played sosoososo much, jumping on tables heh,. and trying to bring down the balloons the guys delibrately let go off,was crazzeeh. Laugh till my stomach hurts, Damn. Adrain-.- Hahahhaa.



Everybody went to china.
That reminds me. Havent started packing for Cameron.
I.. don';t. I.. Abit. Lazy leh. /:
Don't feel like moving,let alone go to another country.


Beautiful Disaster and some like it hot are veryverryvery nice books! hehe.

Sickening fact : that we can't control our dreams'. I don't want nightmares!!! ):
Getting chased around by some woman who can fly and wearing 'heroine' clothes in and out of the library is not nice at all!


Kicking away my thoughts.
-- You. Twofaceperson. (scary monster! .)
and you. coward.(ask me directly if you have yur doubts! )
The Fish said to The Sea, "You can't feel my tears coz im in the sea."
The Sea replied, "I can feel your tears coz youre in my heart."


Don't you think its just.. awwwwwww sweeet?
Miss these kinda' words.

Not a girl not yet a woman! ' Mann. I miz this song.
Hehe.

i need faith, of at least a mustard seed.
Hope's still lurking, Arse, i hope its true.

Monday, May 19, 2008

I am okay!

Why do i strive to be strong everytime i've fallen?
Guess thats just the way it goes?!
Hehe, I am very happy now!

简简单单就好。
这样的过日子也蛋不错.

Saturday, May 17, 2008

A better man.

Went to singapore post 'rooftop' today. K, Walked to singapore post. I enjoy every min i'm walking now. Used to think it was tiring, But now. Really lovin' it.! heeeh. Then, go up and down the lift, but cannot find the 'top' -.- Scaaarrrry. But. fun! hehehe. So settled with Coffeebean. The wind only came when we were about to leave-.- Nvrmind. Butter then none! hehe. The moon was big and round. That was when i thought of you B.t. ''Wish upon th moon''. Was what you always told me.
Xinxin,勾勾手指了,不会反悔。! hehe.
''you?'me?'youu?no,me. youu? hahahahha.
Xie xie ni! For tonight. (:


Staying Strong.

I took in everything everybody said. I learnt. And i am growing from here.

I don't care about what happened in the past anymore. I don't care. Its a whole new pair of Wings i have now. I am going to fly. soar higher then before. Not trapping myself on the ground now. I promise myself.
One point you're out of focus, you can't dig it anymore. Still, an occassional meditating on such a another dimensional view allows me to reflect. Reflect and change. Reflect and reduce the defenceful front. Reflect and withdraw.~


Yeah. I am not going to say anything to hold you back anymore.
Cuz. I was told to stop the torturing to let go.
Don't want to cause so much hurt or sadness to someone.
It was never ever my intention.
Not going..to. Show. Any sign of.. anything..

Cause i'd rather hurt myself than to ever make you cry
You'd never ask me why, my heart is so disguised.
Along with it the tune my heart cries.
I can relate to every single song on my playlist.
Maybe fate`ll bring us back together again someday.


I always swore to you i never fall apart.Mommy. Sorry.
And bending over backwards
just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laugh

Aloha Means Family. Family Means Nobody Gets Left Behind.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Methemorphosis,Whatever this is.

If you lie to yourself to be happy, you belong to a special group

of creatures called human beings. -- Hamed Okhravi


那,我是超人了!



陈钰盈。不应该在退后。



從我臉上的蒼白 

看到記憶慢下來
過去甜蜜在倒帶
只是感覺已經不在
而我對你的期待 
被你一次次摔壞 
已經碎成太多塊 
要怎麼拼湊跟重來
應該開心的地帶 
你給的全是空白 
一個人假日發呆
找不到人陪我看海
我在幸福的門外
卻一直都進不來
你累積給的傷害 
我是真的很難釋懷



You people suck for being so competitive.Great. -.-
Sound lyk a bigbig sore loser.Whaaaatevr.
I'm afraid that i might fall into the same self-created problem for the countless times.
But this time, I'll be careful. I won't................ let myself repeat the same.
Take my sweet sweet tym after exams?ShittyshitttyBangbang.
Everybody just keeps going and going. Lyk whoa.
Marde.Even the world doesn't stop spinning. Zz. Flip books somemoree.
I hope..I will not let myself sink..into this Black irony pool of shit. I hope
Maybe all this will go away, one day it'l be just like yesterday.



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今天,很想要用我的高等华文说话。^^ 昨天,我迷路了。
不知道找谁该好。。好可怕。

‘’死了,死了,我不会走‘’
‘’没关系,我带你!‘。
对话从我的耳边传来。我。。我。多么的希望在那时刻,有人能在我旁边这么说。

我的眼睛好象,湿湿的。但,我告诉自己,不可以。我。。我要便勇敢。
我要。。长大。;两个小时后,

我到家了。第一次! 钰盈真了不起。
我很开心,因为我没有哭到!一点也没有哦!




Take it as a donation to Sbs !.Tapped in and out countless times
and went in and out the same bus-.- The bus driver became my friend.
But, the person at th Mrt counter very not helpful./:
Roar. He gave me a book and asked me to check myself._. Marde. Felt so..Useless.

Deleted th front part Cuz, Ah wong got all 'big talk'. to me.Heeh. You woke me up.
Your sms came likeA slap . But with the utmost care . Not in a bad way!.
And.. Thanks alot. Oky. Superglue back your ehemehem strrongg wings -.- hehe.

Dare to soar aye?


Went to pulau ubin ytrday. HAHAHA.
Shijudeen hair just grow back leeh. Then got cut again-.-
HAHAHA. Oky, Ehem. Hehe. Sensory trail. Atcually,, i really enjoyed myself there. !
Went into the first bakery of singapore, Which is now a hole in a tree and planted by a bird poo!
Then. Ate a bitter bitter plant directly plucked out from the ground. 'The brave one! ' hehehhe.
Probably walked around th whole pulau ubin! Losta red ants._. 不是已经放 insect replellent.!-.-
Still come irrtatingly craw up!. Then.. . We played finger game. And beach cleaning. Atcually, Also not bad la! hehehee,.


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'' Are you sure you want play another time anot??'''' YA! ''
and whoa. 3-0. Nikki wwwooooonn in the finger game. -.- Heh/. Nehmind.

今天走回家,一直不停的转头。我。。。 以为你会在后面。


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Mm-mm-mm! B. t. ! Hahaha.
''i got new sms leehe. wonder who!' hahahahhaha.
kkkkkkkk, laughing at/to myself.
And sorrrry. I'll keep my promise. from monday.
Oh wait. Monday vesak day.... Right? Tuesday!
Hehe. Sorry, For being such a disappointment.
High now. Don't tell me you're low. -.-


I hate it when people look at me when i eat.




Join me in the middle of ecstasy

Monday, May 12, 2008

我回来了!

Firstly,Want to say sorry to stella and xinxin tan! heeh. For irratating the hell'outta you'll these few days. butt. Mm. 过去了,就不要再想,

那得起,放的下。 Fu lao shi. During the chinese lesson, you taught me more than i could ever learn. You taught me priceless life lessons. You were so engrossed in talking. And i was so fascinated in hearing! hehe. Thanks. 我知道你永远都在! Hehe.

Got a whole chunk to type out. But. i think i typed enough for the night.

hahas. i see.. well to me, hmm. Kristal is.. someone whom i dnt know very well, yet, whn we chat, it feels like we've been friends since forever. Kristal is someone, despite not knowing each other so well, i know i can trust her with anything. Kristal is someone, whose smile, could bring joy into me, and turn frowns into smiles as well. hmm in my heart, Krisal equal pure joy lol.

This makes me smile ! (:

Ah wong, Thanks for letting me shout at you. and chu qi,cheering me up, keeping quiet when i ask you to and entertaining me! (:Thanks for always been there,letting me attitude you(-.-) Dont. My temper will become worst!. and giving me wake up calls in the morning and staying up late to accompy me during exams! hehe. Just want you to know, I really appreciatteeee'em
alootttt oky.So much i want to say. but. Yaaa. And your famous pasta,tomato,ketchup whatever instant noodles ! hehe. Xie xie ni. Xie xie ni. Xie Xie ni.
You know i am here too ya. hehe.
I thank god for giving me friends lyk you.
From the bottom of my heart!

ohGREAT.
You are not making this easy.

Hole In my soul.

A smile like yours.
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Lord, i'm your worst daughter ever.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Stepping back



The thing i thought was so easy, got harder and harder each day.

I fell on the pillar ytrday. Gastric and low-blood pressure is gong to kill me one day leehz.
I think..I am..very..very tired.
I will not stick my fingers into people's pie anymore.
Mum told me : Sometimes when someone is feeling sad, he/she just needs to be by themselves.
To grow through this. And when they are ok, they come back and you'd be there with them to give them that special final touch. To make them feel even better and complete them !.


You deserve mother's day evryday laaa mu qin da ren.
All you ever do is put up with my temper.
You are th only one who forgives me right aftr i shout at you.
And that will always be.(:
AND NOW YOU ARE THINKING THAT I FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOUR PRESENT.
BU HUI DE LA.
From small to now, I give w/o fail.
This year, It will be the same!


"At times it seem so hard to move foward because we are so scared of what lies ahead"
I take a step back. And i see a clearer picture.
Life is short, break the rules,
forgive quickly,kiss slowly, love truly, laugh uncontrollably,
and never regret anything that made you smile.
It will all get better in time !

Th old one will come back.
Hehe. '
(takes a deep breath).
Kristal tan,你最近好得很呢!
笑一个。

说说我自己
我被影响到了
我没哭。我不怕。
I feel lyk..
Flying.
ValerieValencia. See you soon.!
(:
hahahahhahahahhahahhahahaahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhahahaha.

Th-real. You.

This post is back,cuz i got nothing to hide.


To find yourself?

I want to help. Even if it means getting shouted at by you.
And even if you won't. I rather you do.
Cuz shouting aloud wont help but it makes us feel better! hehe. Lyrics. okok.skip.
And. Hehe. Lyk what you always ask : Then what am i here for?
Cuz. I believe. Cuz. Rmbr? Ni shi hao ren!.
Nobody can find him or herself at this age. ! Its hard.
Each time a million lines will come up to my mind to tell you.
But each time when i reply. i feel lyk slapping myself for acting so nonchalant.!

You are.. A funny person who always try to make people laugh!
You are.. A person who wants to xiao ha ha.
You are...A person with a liita part of happy childhood too!.(:
You are.. A person who always has alot of things to say. Cuz You can express.
You are.. A person who like any others just want true friends who stab you at the front. And not play along.
You are.. A person who does not lyk troublesome things. So stop troubling yrself with yr identiy.
You are.. A person.. a person.. whose english is veryvery good! But chinsese...haaai. hahaha. ok la. Atucally.. not badnotbad ._.
you are.. A person who can draw dragons and get money for it ! hehe.
you are... A person who is scared of dirtying uniform! hehe. okok. Not very good-.-
Youa re.. A pig. ! . A person who is always adapting.
Why not let the surroudnings adapt to you? Maybe cuz.. Ni mei ci dou yin wei zhe yang er yi zhi gai, gai, gai, You don't know who you are anymore?.

You once told me : Just be yourself and you'll be ok.


Wo bu yao ni bu kai xin.

Thursday, May 08, 2008

i'm thinking it too far,

































TMD. I EVEN WANTED TO SAY. 'NEVERMIND. I GIVE YOU 7DAYS AND 7HOURS LEH.'
But just to realize you replied so early. This phone can feed sharks.Cuz I still havent receive anything yet.

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I learnt that life is.. really very short becuz time passes so damn quickly.Th first min, i was dreading Midyrs lyk shit. Worrying lyk shit. But, w/o me knowing. Exams are over. But. I don't feel relieved at all.
Cuz, Becuz of you. i am trembling inside. Still am. I don't know. ): Zhen Mei yong. I feel lyk i am never gonna rest till i get a specific answer.Till i know how and what is happening. Till. All this awkardness goes away. Till. .. .. But, No Worries ! !! I will be back soon.


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I HAD A HAPPPYY DAAY YTRDAY. :D
Off to leisure park. ! Ate Kfc and chitchat alot. Oky. No. Listened to chitchats alot.hehe. i mixed up ' year of the rat' with 'rat of the year' . Words. Are so powerful.Then we went bowling. I broke recoorrd leeehz. I used to have everyball go inside the 'longkang'.I used to never fail to fail bowling. BUUUTTT. I owned th second game ytrday! hehe. From 30+ to 9666! * Beams.

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The day past with laughs and smiles and 'suans.' hehe.Watched Superhero. Comedy . Hehe. But the people ard me. *stares at Stella,Is funnier then the comedy. hehe, Juz lyk how you fell on the floor when your seat swinged back.ZAI LAI YI CI! hahaha. Oky. And jiepin kept throwing popcorns everywhre. The uncle came in and went out immediately to take broom and dustpan. And huimin laughed till her head sunk down to her seat. And it seems lyk Marcus sat on every sit in the thetre. Climbing here and there. Eh. Monkier then me ! :D
[Drats. You again]. See what i mean!


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Over and done with. We went to the Merrygoround thing.
I.. mizz. Sitting on that. hehe. Nevrmind . We go market and i sit on the thing that goes round and round again nex time! hehe. Thanks lord.Thanks Zigen fr enlightening me!, Hehe.Thanks Terrence fr being so deaf in th middle of th night. Making me want to find microphone! hehe.Thanks... whoa. Like Thank-you speech. Stop--.


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I spent my day today reading leekwanyew book and my autumn comic. Heh. i got jiepin addicted. Getting more and more engrossed!

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Cuz I rather spend bad times with you.
then spend good times with someone else
钰盈啊。就算我求你。救救你自己。!
It’s too late now, still I’ve got smth to say
I’m sorry that I treated you that way
-Time has gone now, and the moment has passed,
When I had the chance to try and make us last
All alone now, and it’s no one’s fault but mine
Couldn’t see the truth, I had those blinded eyes
You have moved on, still I don’t give a damn
Gotta get this off my chest while I can.



And. I believe. ! (;
Tmr will be a even better day! .

I hope u drown in your spit.Co.ward.You.
Stranger than your sympathy.
No. No sympathies oky.
Just true heartfeltwords.