2.07am.
The lighted city

Downright.

I Don't Know What The Hell I Am Studying For.


fuck.,

Lord, i told you to help me not run away.

Ah. Sean Farris. lol, Valerie you have your Tom Kultz and all.

Besides Mike He, Finally. Sean Farris. Haha.

Do you ever feel like cursing hard when you see the digits rising and rising when you are seating in the cab during a big trffic jam and mother long red light.

I do.

Roar. Forget about the bucks. Its the fact that.. i tried shit to rush to the airport after church to meet at Changi Airport. Xiang Jie went New Zealand to studie._. Roar. And i didnt turn up at the last gathering as well. All i got to do was : race like some olympic around the Marde Big Changi Airport with three terminals-.- All i got to do was : run around with my loud 'clucking- slippers and getting stares because the airport is damn quiet. And all i got to do was: to talk to xiang jie on the phone. I mumbled ''pray everyday! And god bless.. and.....'' But i guess,. She didnt hear. Its not important what i say, but.. whats important is. I really wanted to see her. ''One last time''. Nice workout in Changi. Ran arond terminal two and overshot at terminal three. Darn.

Thanks Zhenyan, Alot. You answered what i asked for. This is the second time i see Zigen cry. And.. i really don't knw what to say. Lord, you replied me.

I wanted in my heart to hug Zhenyan and she came to do it straight away .( Man. I jjust just just received Zhenyan,*grins Msg! Coincidence or what! ) .

Eh.. aw. Roar. Then, i asked lord to show me l.ov.e. And straight away, the three of them as if of divine call , prayed for me. ! We were supposed to pray for one another. They were praying out loud in tongue.But, i mumbled. Then, suddenly they came closer to me. and prayed for me.me.

Their words.. They. They trust me! They believe in me. They prayed for me. Thanks,''sister! (:

My future, dreams and hopes are in your hands.

I believe in you cause you believe in me.

Mould my future. i am yours.


Never thought i post like this.

Change me ya baby.

Decided to go century square after an hour. Then, watched "Never back down.' Shrieked and screamed alot. heh. Love it . Esp Sean Farris. Immediately tried to rmbr his name once the credits came out.! Great show. Really. I wanna go kickboxing soon! real soon. Wished they didnt slang too much though. And the rest keep asking me why i laugh! I don't knowwwwwwwww. lol.

Show me what this life is about.

This is a call.

Who said she wanted to do her homwork today.

You only did one maths question during the advertisement of dou niu yao bu yao today Kristal.

back at 12.
Bed at 2.
Shag.

Lord, you catch me when i'm falling

''Dear girl, whatever will be will be will be.''. Papa said.

Dearest Diary:
First week of school is over, Booyeah. I feel a lil' tiny sense of accomplishment in me. ! *grins Completing homeworks and trying and trying. I hope i never cease to stop. Teacher's compliments, scoldings=wholepackage. Devoured a book it in a single gulp, read through the day.There came a part:

"'And what if it does'nt work out in the end?What if you try and end up falling?Why do it, then? '' ''Because we have to try,''
Ah, the reply sucks, but ya. You get what i mean.

This year, I suddenly love reading. Hoho. They bring me far far away,
I guess life is all about grasping the beat. Study, play & breathe life baby. Playing every moment to its fullest. Probably

I have been a veryvery happy girl this week! With the laughs, talks,incidences and games provoked .You people are the best damn things. Everything really seems to be falling into place. And i realized, : you know when you are really tired when you can yawn while bathing. Hehe. Fuck much?
Thogh the hapiness, i have to admit,Things are different. A whole lot? Sometimes i've been fighting hard yet sometimes when i stop to catch a breath, i start asking myself. WHY. Why do all these. And then, i start becoming ''intimidated; lol, kylie-.- And then, ya. Thinking brings me to ass places. ^^. Just that, yesterday. Suddenly i felt like i hold the weight of the world. Ah wong. Heh. Ku xiao bu de. Thanks............ You know you have been busy!._. You know it sucks. You know. you knowwwwwww.

Today was yet another fun day. Somethig diffrent. Unawared Changes are good. Ate noodles with Shija,Adrain and alll. They really make me laugh alot. And i like it! hehe. Its really nice to have guys around , you will.. feel protected, much. And taken well cared of. To the 6 of you. Thanks for being so honest-.-, shouting to me giving me my munchy doughnuts! ahahhaa. Funny.Telling me i should not walk at the alley and Jay offering to guard me with banana leaves.! Laughing your asses off when i told you'll i got spondge bob boxers from a long time ago, . Great time. ! .

What else.Sigh.
Today in class we had to do an experiment on science reflction. Each of us received a mirror.
ELGIN: I KNEW IT! I KNEW IT! I know the first thing sure kristal look at herself in the mirror one-.-
Lol. Good lah. Say so loud somemore. Heheeee.

And sometimes I can't mention how I really feel inside because I tend to forget stuff the moment I start typing. Like I hv so many things to say, and so many different people to talk to, but then again I feel like if I were to tell that someone how I really feel, things might change because life isn't that simple and if I say something I meant but it sounds all wrong, everything might change between us. Because life goes on but feelings dont. Wait I'm not making sense. At all. )

I shall just stop here!
Haha. Bebe, Fafa,Tiatia,ShanShan,Heahea,Jingjing, and i cannot rmbrr aahh. Dig it.

Kriskris.
Xoxo.

You will never see me,
till you are part of my life.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Hey all. Life has been great. Its been passing me through.
And i will try not to backspace what i am typing here.
I don't want to have second thoughts. hhhhaah.



I really feel like going for the missionary trip, and i really don'd mind saving hundreds to go. :D

Irritating, i feel bored of my blogskin already. Don;t know last time who say will not change the blogskin anymore because she wants to assure herself spending a whole day looking at codes is not a waste of time.

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This holiday is like action-packed.So, i really enjoyed myself i guess.
They say happy times past by very quickly, holidays are over in a matter of time so.. i guess i'd been happy.? Ah, shit. I am not making sense.

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And, i want to reply tags. But everytime i see the many accumulated, i.. ya la! Don't feel like already. Btwaaaaay, the song is forever-fireflight. And i will reply tags. Soon, Patience.

So many things left undonee leeh.
ah, shutup.

Deep down the valley

Today

Huiting and I at sg flyer. Jacq and I . My wallpaper.

In the cinema. At b.k,ecp longlongtimeagowith xin.
Played alot of games, won Rats But i won
A bigbig teddy bear!(: hehe. Alghter abt
20bucks spent. but, nice tim

Sososomanypikcures.
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Where do i start.
Watched KunFu panda ytrday.
Funnnyy. hhee, Heard many kids laughing they were like ' hehehe!'
Make me even more want to 'Hahaae'.
Xiao dao.. hen shuang.
Watched withjacqbro,qixiang,jon.!(:


On the way home, we were talking about our horoscope, I am a lamb! I think.. hee. Then qixiang and jacq expressions were classic. HAHHAA. AND THIS YEAR CRISTMAS, I PINKYFINGERSWEAR THAT IT IS GOING TO BE FUN SHYT. whoa. Heh.

Haha. Theres No Special Ingredient.
--Fkplayrs.


Don't really know what to say. Shall just keep my mouth shut, YAA.
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..
....
......
Renee,Haha. .
Forgotten atcually.
But, Luckillly.Got you to remember Leeh.! (:

Makka trend for you to rmbr evry c-h-rished 15th. Great.
Happy gas/les Partner Day .^^

Slept at 4am. and Kraven. Did you sleep! Hahaha. Imagine you at wildwild wet really fall down the slide, i laugh. Track at 8 was tiring but fun i gueess. 3hrs+ of sleep sucks. The sun sucks too.
Darn Hottttt. Then went to valerie's house. Played neopets. Haha. Eat instant noodles.. withegg!
lol,valerie. Ainiorh HAHAHA. Then you go '' i know''.-.- Then bang back to zero. lol. Back home slept whole day. Roar. Homework. !



Hello. [s]bye[/s]



-----Then i see you standing there,wanting more from me.And all i could do is try.
xoxo.



I can't decipher reflections from reality.

Holler back.Getting closure.

To you. all.

I either feel like deleting my blog or changing to livejournal

I need to catch myself.

I like to depend.

depend=childish.

but i still like.

But i will stop.

i will. ^^.

I can.

Hello, Just me

Today, was fun!.
Went to sit singapore flyer with mommy's side cousins. Ben lai wanted to sit at night, and was really looking forward to see stars and all. Then changed to morning. Buut, Still great! :D Took maany photos. Spent my last few mins on flyer talking to b.t! hehe. EHH. one min up there 1buck. Talk to you, not cheap leeh. But, its great to hear your voice again. lol.
Went to watch The incredible hulk too. Nice! And a lil funny (: AHH. So nice to have someone big carry you and protect you. the feellinnnnnnnngg. And, the hulk. his eyes. are.. i strared straight into it. So much feelings.
'GRRAAAH'. He went.


I learnt that the hardest thing to say is not i loveyou.sorry.thankyou.need/wantyou.or what.
But,

Byebye.

Hearing whispers that you no longer care.

So much to say
But where do I start
Would you listen if I spoke from the heart
It's simple things
That keep us apart
You know it doesn't have to be this way



So if I did something wrong please tell me,
I wanna understand.Cos I don't want this love to ever end.
But hell no. I am not standing here forever.
girls.

Don'tell me all these 'last min!' Its just...excuses.Nvrmind. It just cuts me open and make
my eyes burn. I demanded my tears to stay in.

Today, track was great.
(:

Tell me you'r here and you will watch over me forever.

Its easy.

Anyone who says sunshine brings hapiness
has never danced in the rain
-Joyce Perz.



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I'll make this work. Dreams will always be dreams unless you put them into action. Got this from shawn tan diary in primary school. haha.I'm Done with everything..esp. tryingJust to realised. why care so much. ?

It takes courage to make a fool of yourself. Always look at what you have left, not what you have lost.Oky, if you are cheying me or what now.-.- I just realised it now,. so what. its better than nothing!(:


If you love someone let it go,and if it comes back then thats how you know.
Ahhhh was pondering on this phrase today and it's so true.
Suddenly. Even what jiepin told me comes to mind:Its not your job to save the world and be superwoman,
I cannot remember the last part. But ya. I don't care about the past nor future.
I care. about the present.! (:


Above was Just a sudden thought.


So many things lately. I don't know where to start.
Right now, I'm asking myself : What am i willing to become?
Man. Before anything, i want to say :

Thanks Zigen. hehe. I'm not used to hear you being called Daniel, chicken!/: But, yeaah. talk about transformation. hahaha. And thanks for scaring me at the lift early in the morning and leaving me to scream . Hehe. Atcually, no. for picking me up! . Don't know how long never see each other already leeeh. Eeyer. But wl. You still have a foul mouth. Hahhaa. You great chicken. ! W/o a need to try being nice. Cause you are a natural. Like man, constant. Can weee go playground agaaainnnn._. Imagine you now, running. HAHA. train body onlly-.- biiiig deal. lol. Taller one head,skin nice shyt,,oldereeeer.,.Oh sheesh. Lol. EHHHH,nice shirt * looks at demi too. hhaha.

I'm not blinded anymore.Now i see things clearly, like.. pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer?Hehe. I love nick lachey and his lyrics. Anyway,yeah I don't know if its a good thing or bad. But, Yupp.Talk about crystal clear.

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Went to church ytrday.(by god's will---insight) hehe And. Man. What the preacher said, really hit me bulleyes.I mean.. Lyk... really.really. Abandon my heart, lift my hands up.
The whole church, youths were crying. I heard loud,uncontrollable cries and kneeeling on the floor burrying heads with our hands. was a sight. So surreal. My tears they just kept rushing, my eyes were burning. But hell no. Not some moaning session. It was... something,so much more. Aftr that, went to eat with a new group of people.! (:Hehe. Friendly. ! Sooo, yeeah. Quite enjoyable. And funny. But the thing is, everybody asked me to guess their age-.- Lol. 17.18,21+? Big people. !

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And Xinxin! hahaha.You came back. People counted down leeeh. hahaha.And kungfu panda,go create yourself in bangalore.The plane will have 4 wings. !Cause you are in it. yeeah.And,pengda. Talk about standing tall. HAHA. ''Wheres the kristal i used to know! '' really struck me hard, Soon. Soooooooooooooooon. Bet cha. Thanks.. ! And Stella stanely pauline! Lol,. Zz, The turtle plant. Atcually,almost. cha dian. I want to give other people already>/: Huixun, Novia. Still rmbred we said we see whose plant grow longer leeeh! :D Hhe. I havent' started planting my snowman. lol.

Today, After library, went aerobics room at valerie's&valenciea's! lol-.- Anywaaay,.Had fun! lol. EHHHH. Amanda.): you suddenly disappeared .


Thanks to the many for making me laugh so much infront of the screeen. HAHAHA. Even now, i am laughing away while typing . Hilarious. Kept having flasback. Haha.

只要笑一笑没什么大不了！:D

I will try

WLLLLLLLL.Here i am in the school's comp labb.And everybody's being ppiiiiiigggggs.EHHH I don't care. Comelater must draw pig on hand.Deal.I got markers. Red,blue,yellow,green,orange,peach,black,brown.All also got!Haha.Brought markers to do lorna b'day card.lol.Mann.Onnly got 4 freaking people here.But,hahaha. The music's playing loud on the speaker.Oky, know what.I cannot find the speaker.And the thing is,i don't know how to lower the volume.thats why very loud-.-
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lol. Zz. As i'm typing, i'm getting sleepier again. Man. And the two people incharge also not here.__. YANZHOU. You should'nt have told me about the school comp lab. (heh) Tmd. Bored shyt. Today, is...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORNA ASTRONOMO CARAS.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

GROW OLDER ALREAADY.

LORNA JIE JIE. HAHAHAHHA.

HOW ABOUT AUNTIE LORNA FOR A CHANGE?

NAAAAAAH :D

Yesterday at 12am+++. Went into the room, jumped on her and screamed

'' HAAPPPY BIRTHDAY' Then someone go'' i waaaant to sleeeeppppp'and cover the blanket over her._. Zz. So much for being the first to wish her.lol.I somemore so happy,go out and ''HAHAHA.KELVIN TAN.I FIRST TO WISH LORNA LEEH.'Then mummy came out to nag.

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Oky,another guy came into the lab again.Man.How i long to hear a high pitch voice.lol.

Man.What am i doing here._.OH YA.I AM HERE TO HELP BOTH OF YOU LEEEEHH.

WL.I COULD HAVE BEEN SLEEPING STILL._.AW MAN.Hehe.EHHH.so please come soooon./:Thanks lord for the computer. for the internet. for the music.hehe.

* guys infront just turned on their music. wl. fight with me!

COMPUTER VS PHONEE LEEH. hahaha.

Self-start battle.

I can write a thousands songs to comprehend--I can make you stay. but, Man,song went to fast.
I can't catch up to type out the lyrics.Hehe.

This register38 light-producing white box is boring-ing me.

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*Another guy came in. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

OIOIOIOI. And ''zhen de zhen de zhu'' just smsed me''Lunch how?'' lol. EHHHHHH.-.-

And the ''bigger pig'' just smsed me ''omg... I am the real pig'' Lol.

BOTH OF YOU JUST MAKE ME SMILE TO MYSELF ON THE SPOT.

Baby we are invincible.

This-kneeland. is gone. Changed. To... I havent think yet. Don't even want to go there.

If i can take this words and fill it up with air.

I fly you to the moon so we can disappear.

I'm trusting you and i'm taking the long way home.

I know theres something strong. And baby we are invincible---

Livin' in a world with no air

You don't try to change me.
Love me for me.


The charm of life is in fully preserving that childish asepct.For only in that way we will face setbacks more easily, and more optismitically.When i look in the mirror,I see a person who looks to the older, to give me adivce.Who's afraid of making decision,for fear that i might fall.I cannot bear to lose anything.The mirror also reaveals a child.I am a child,I want to be a child forever. ! ^^I never want my eyes to stop shining.I always want to have a smile for life.
I will never . Ever. Let the child in me Die.

I suddenly know..where i want to head to. My goal. ''And she scores!'' whoo. Hee.

I'm not giving in easily.
Once in a lifetime,
that means theres no second chance.
Get it? (: