--You've been v.v.v.v. patient&nice. !
Funnyy at times. ! Aha.
I can say i've been crying like shitz cause' my heart was aching from everything accumulated.
Didnt know i cared so holycow much.
I've been the indecisive and fickle-minded one.
Live with it. i just am.
i don't know who said those bullshitz and all about me.
You chose to believe'em.,
Alls fine. They might not be wrong or what.
but you be your own judge oky.
*************
Chances Aplenty for love ! (:
One chance for studies onlllyyyy eeeh.
Cant let it slip away.
Not like that. Not anymore.e. Jue dui bu ke yiiiiii ! ~
No more disappointment.
There has been too many.

I strayfromlove.
Having butterflies in the stomach
and falling head over heels all th time
Cant be good anyway.

Moving on. !

From everything.


Peak up.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
Day after tomorrow will be an even better day..
Day after after tomorrow will be an even even better day...
God will make a way.


GOODNIGHT!
Dont you see sadness in my eyes,
bcause everything you told me were just lies.

我的心里踏实多了（：
我要好好用功。
不能让自己有呼吸的机会!

Thanks Yiwen,Xinxin and Huimin! (:

You and me.(:

w.ithered rose.

''I am a flower quickly fading.

Here today and gone tmrw.

The way you toss in the ocean.

--who am i.

I dream.I can be the hero thats in me.I dream of a moment that forever will be golden.

Ranting here only makes people worried.

Just a quick thanks to Mr. Jiawei.Nj.(:

Coughing like hell.

i feel terrible atcually.

Theres gotta be more to life then what i see.--

Idontknow what is happening.

Do you?

--I Dream.

I am sad.):
Sad.

Such love I can never understand

Not a speck of guilt

Not a hint of shame

Yet accused by your very own

Not a reason for blame

Yet not a word, you said

As you took my place on that cross

Condemned to death

You never did deserve

Yet in silence took my place

Such loveI can never understand

Scourged and whipped

Your blood and wounds cry out

This innocence and pain

Such loveI can never understand

Losing voice is no fun.
Having to drink cups or water is no fun.Being sick is no fun.Having to see doctor later is worst.Iwillruntoyou-- \Zz. this post is screwed. 9.4.08

不知为什么心突然破了一个洞似的

我怕。











真得很怕很怕。

Sucker. Feel uzelezzzzzzz.zz. ah after th call.
B. T./:

But even enemies can show respect..
I have respect. For.
you. you. you. you. you. you. and you.
Great.

哪里有彩虹能告诉我。
能不能把我的愿望还给我。
为什么天那么安静？
所有的云都跑到我这里。
接下来的路要往哪走？

I wont let th littlest things bring me down no more.
I wont. I'll still carry on.
Being Gay. =)

Drug. Zz. Where are you.

I...used to.

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,

it's about learning to dance in the rain.

I want to try something.. different.

Piazza Hut,Chalet at aloha.'' Fun dudes.! (:

After gulping down a whole cup of vacardi.

At cine. With-dont-know-whoes bike !

Outside arcade! heeh. I love air slammer and car racing games!(:

K-box.

Mario. -- !~ (:

Yumm! A happy girl with a full stomach!

Watched Horton.

3 stars! (:

'' In my world, there are grasses filled with ponies.

My ponies eat rainbows and poo butterflies.

Went Back to Gmp for church service.

I almost cried singing the songs.);

I miss chapel.

I regret not appreciating those chapels every weds back those years.
I miss having chapel with grace,crystal,alson,fankai,marcus. ! (: Aha.

Those were the days/.

Went Macs with amanda's group.Nice people. (:

Took many photos. Will upload once sent.

Life has been fulfilling and great (:
I know i cannot expect to be happy all th time.

because then, life will be mundane.

There will be nothing special about it all.

Many events. So many i've forgotten.

Not joking but, i've been sleeping at 2-3am everyday since 13march.

Zz. Body's clock is all wrong. And everytime i wake up, i yawn. Wt.

Oky. Kristal.Enough.

Realized that i have'nt been giving myself a chance to daydream anymore.

That was what i was best at.

Now. I'm stuck in reality.

Now. I dont give myself the singlest second to fantasize./:

And i just found out my maid smokes too. Zz.

WakeupKristal.

You dont want to waste another day.--

开心！

快乐！

幸福！

冲凉！

Out of boredom.

Feel the saliva evrywhre ah,
Good teacher(:

Out of boredom.. again.

and again.

jacq~

xin!

Xiang! They say we lookalikeee(:

Why people complain cannot read my entries!

Eeeeeeee. Aha. Ass! Eeeee somemore.

Walking in the rain.. is. Nice.

Needed washing.

Wakeupcall lord sent. And i woke up.!(:

I'm a happy girl *grins.

_______________________

Ytrday, so shiok ah. Woke up at 5.30am. Eyes itchy and pain.Rubrubrub.. rub rub rub..rubrubrub.

BUT STILL ..zz, Rub until angry ah. Rly wantedto sleep till noon. Had a really bad dream.):

Dreamt about getting th suckiesresults , Bian tai. Decided not to sleep then and that.

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Burgerking for breakfast at Ecp with Xin.Eateateat.Talktalktalk. Then.Suddenly, of all places, of all time, of whatever lars,Ass,Shija,Adrain aiya, I think al` the soccer boys came in.

Ass made me laughhhhh like shit. You lamo,joker,.funny guy~(: Somemore go act starwars, draw on the window! Hee. Xin knows. We came in like 1hr earlier than'em, But they left 45mins earlier than us.Hoho.Nvrmind. We know how to enjoy life ah. 慢慢来吗.

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Was raining heavily. So, decided not to be fools and wait.Walking barefoot in the rain at ecp is th bomb. Spin&twirlenough alrdy. We saw anempty tent. Had a crazy idea to carry the tent and walk.Haha. Then continued walking for half and hour in the rain. A guy even ' Enjoy your bath' us.

Walking in the underpass alone and not doing anything is scary._.

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Met stella and osten at Ntuc. Haha. Laughed like shit again. Man. Both of'em tghter.= POWER!

Haaai. Stella. 失败eh. Lmao. (: Mm-mm-mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Took bus to bugis. Cut hair. (: Likelike.Met heng&bought birthday cake for xiang.

Went to eat at Mario.Korean steamboat. And then i learnt that i dont know how to enjoy food one. I just gobble everything down. Nvr think so much about the flavour,taste shit. I stick to sinapore's. (: Loyal ah. Xiang's bf. was s.weet. Aw.

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Went k-box. 20bucks per head ah. /: And we 那时刻的心情喝汽水也会醉 !(: Enjoyed alot.

Went wild. Reached home at about 1am+ fall on the bed and sleep.

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Today 七早八早 wake up, go ecp clean beach.-.- Biantai.

Then went to stella's house. Hoho. Lunch was... luckily-not-as-spicy-as-i-thought.(:

Heeh. And Laogongpo kept 帮我加鱼-.- Aha

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Went down tk to fetch Max & Went to jiepin's house.(:

Watched My wife is a gangster 3. Wa. Laugh till sides hurt. Heeh. But i like!

Was so 激动! I kept moving forward&back when laughing till` my head hit the floor._.

Tmrw might be sleepover & saturday is off to leisure park for jacq's b'day(:

Jacqqqqqq. Lucks for everything ah. ! (: JIA YOU. with him!

Zz. I know ya.

you girls can stop acting-.-

Plz. I dont know what you're thinking.or what is happening. Should i just say goodbye?You gotta knw i have no energy now.,To savalge,to play mindgames,.Why do i have this bad feeling.That you;re straying away. that i;m losing grip. of u.s. Realized it did you? Why do i have this disgusting feeling you dont even give a hoot about everything you do to me. Stop. Making me feel so dizzy from the twisting and warping you did to me. Enugh,
I dont want.. to lose you. I dont want... to fall. I dont want...
Plz .
Dont call dont come by.
Dont ask.
I'm not your toy.

I just want to know.. W. hat I.s H.appening,.

"me ah?
Ya you.

I'mscared.Rlyam.

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Plz.DontLetgoofme.

Good Day.

I made the wrong-est decision when i was 8.

My greatest regret.---

the day i ticked a no to step into your grace and accept your open arms in glory.

chose the hard way.

竟然选哲了这条路，就要勇敢地走下去.

Though i know its not too late..

I wonder whats holding me back.

Nevertheless, i know.

you are still here.

--with me.

Song playing : At the cross-hillsong.

Oh great. I'm happy again. Tink!

(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(

Last night gastric camee again!.Painn.like fuck, Didnt managed to vomit on bro's bed though. ! =x Haah.ThanksSTELLA,HUIMIN,KEITH,JOSHUA. For those' you better eat now arhs. GO DRINK HOT MILK IT HELPS. GO EAT. (: words of wisdom.Z. Heeh. bet you're freakin` surprised to see your name here eh keith. ! hah. Oke. Blogger is getting irritaaaating. I cannot upload camp photos! zz. Sucker. Tried so many timees alrdy. ! Waste my precious time. Pui./ heh. Thanks JIEPIN for coming down to find me too.! (: Super surprised to see missed calls from you eh. And i knoow. My complexion is getting suckier lars. Enooooooough! Enoughhh. !I need ahmah's birdnest):Hmm. Nvrmind. By god's grace, it will be like... por-ceeelain' in no time! eh.Time to stop neglecting your skin kristaal. XIN. I order you to give me your skin!NOWNOW ): Rah.
[:x.]
Yeah man/. Cousins are planning baking and sleepovers during holidays(: Three cheers and three cheeers and three cheers. ~ HipHipHooooray. :D
After school care today was quite fun eh. Three of us managed to succesfully get through it tghter.! Hohoho' ' One more hour! One more hour! Fifteen more mins! Ending alrdy Ending alrdy! hahaha. After school care is good. Just that..it gets boring when we have to keep on studying for 3 hours. /:Talked a lil`!Oke. Maybe a little more then little.heh.And Drawdrawdraw with renee.She tested me my ting xie. I freakin` wrote each word 10times and it didnt fking helped. Cause' when she was marking she was like ' wrong! wrong! wrong! aiyo. so many croosses . CHA CHA CHA, Haii:D LOL. [ I faileeed); BUT. I'M NOT GIVING UP.NOT YET.
IF NOT HUIMIN AND STELLA SALIVA WILL BE WASTED. Heeh.

B.T. I dont know what i do w/o you. Zz.
Aiyo. How. Hahaha. And dont be angry nor sad over some engleland pooors lyk shitsssz. guy oke! Heeh.(:
Loves! Aw man. Gave my ehemehemfirsttimetoyoualrdylaa!taoyan., HAHAA.
Noo people. Dont think dirty .

We've got stars directing our fateand we're praying it's not too late
Millennium


Saved. Revived. Alive and kicking again.


___________________________________x.kristal.
Diaryslams.!

Shattered on the ground.
Go trampling down.
Three miles DOWN.
Fee Fa foe.


Whatever. Oke. Now, my energy is rly drai.n.ed. No dejavus plz. Its happening all over again. ! Happy. -----sad. Happpyyy--- sad. This cycle sucks balls. Why on earth cant it be happy-happy-veryhappy-extremely happy-happy. veryhappy etc. !

School life is... fun. But boring. Cause' we always do the same thing all over again. I dont like.
Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Skipped after school care today. And went to watch netball match against tkg. Won!(:
Cried today. Cause' __________ & I rly worked hard for studies. But efforts dont seem to pay off. i Dont fking see the results. I feel like its all useless. I feel like its all going down the drain.the fruits i wait for after labour aint riping. Results are still u.g.eel.ly.
They say perfect practice makes perfect. Crapz. They say ' wait, and you will see. But,. I'm afraid before i could even see, i give up! I need motivation. I need motivation. I need the rock. the push. Sb to show me the way.Zz.

i'mhappy. Cause' many said they would be there.
But to find out. They werent rlyrly. there.
I dont know.

--A nongnongtimeago.--

____________________________________X.kristal
Diary closed.


Here comes wasted head-spaceParanoiaAnger, misplaced feelingsLeave me nowhereAll the timeI'm so sick of people's expectationsLeaves me tired all the time,Daddy where's the sun gone from the skyWhat did we do wrong, why did it dieAnd if you've got no love for me then I'll say goodbye.