who am i.
No mtr wht`.

Dont speak.
Bulleyes.


(:

Gimmemre.

nothing seems to be the way

that it used to.

evryth seems shallow,

lord giveme truth.

I'd think i give up.

On evrything.

Evry single tiny fking thing there is.

Matters can get lost.

Its just so tiresome to feel evryth al' at once.

So maybe, i choose ignorance.

i hate how my energy get drained over the littlest things.

i dont want to feel anyything anymore.

Theres a hole in my chest, where my heart used to be.

just yanked it out, & threw it away.

Job well done, kristal.

21st was huimin's b'day.

i forgot.

How could i.

damn.

& huimin taught me karma.

yupp. After al` that happened, i kinda believe.

What goes around comes ard aye?

And on the 21st, i had badbad case of gastric.

How come timing so perfect one.

disgusting lars.

Of all days, the day we supposed to celebrate than pain.

Stupid stomach,.

I got alot of thanks to give out though[: heh.

Thanks vinnie for carrying my bag.

Thanks kylie for Sheltering me with umbrella? hahaha.

Thanks Nikki for your shoulder to hang on to? lol.

Thanks poh yee, & i dontknow who dont know who.

heh. As long as you got help me, thanks.[:

& specially bastard![:

For your super super good umbrella ! hahahha.

Go change la.

For trying to catch me in case i fall-.-

Dont know what kind of protection.

heh. 5 stars?

& laughing like shit when kylie umbrella flew away.

hhahahhaa.

Then stopped halfway outside some house,

cause i couldnt freakin` hear a thing.

scary.

At least made it to piazza hut to see huimin!

big big accomplishment.

heh,

Then the four of us sit outside pizza hut.

force me eat.

Pizza hut was supposed to be nice,

but that time 觉得特别的恶心/:

I hate the hypocrisy of it all.

I need faith,

When I trample, who will pick me up and tend to my wound?

In fact, now I believe. No one,.

cause,

you'e not you anymore.

she's not she anymore.

he's not him anymore.

so am i not me anymore?

i dont know.

yes, i rmbred, kristal. you gave up.

On ervything,.

My mood now fits- Cry, by rihanna.

My mind is gone,

i'm spinning round.

And deep inside,

my tears i'll drown.

I'm losing grip, what's happening

And it cut me like a knife

Now i'm, in this condition

And i've, got all the symptoms

Of a girl with a broken heart

But no matter what you'll never see me cry

但我知道要放开没有我想象中那么简单.

我好差哦!

sometimes,you feel tht being you is just not good enough.

'im not a girl,not yet a woman-britney spears.

can really describe my mood now.

bye world.

Hello?
Is anybody out there?


This endless road withouht a stop sign.
Cant even find a stranger this time.

Mood now: depressed.

damn it.
i Need to run.
Said that i will run 10 rounds below my house the path there.
in the end eh.
Never did.

& When i'm angry, i run faster.
Like on thursday.
damn it.
Shijudeeen. you gila arhs.
run four rounds/:
damn it.
then run & run run & run.
then come in as one of the fifth?
i dont know.
i just wanted to keep on running,
No mtred, how tired i am.
No mtr how i felt like exploding.
& lord, i will run to you.
Not my might, not by power.
but by the spirit of god.
& yes i will run the race, till i see your face.


Lol. i laughed alot in class.
Marc: whats after science?
me: huh.
Marc: whats after science?
me: huh.
Marc; whats after science?
me : HUH!?>
Marc: whats after science?
Me: HUHHHHHH!?
Marc: WHAAAAAATS AFTER SCIENCE LAA.
me: HUH?
me: ohhohohoh! whats after science ah? i dont know.
Marc: Fuck.-.-

heh. & lessons are alright[:
at least, right now, i can concentrate unlike 07,
when after 3 seconds then give up.
hahahha,


& i feel like a bag of rubbish.
I cant even get what i promised done,
i didnt even put in effort.
i cant even understand what is so easy.
i cant even look away.
i cant even spare a thought for others.
i cant.damn it.
dammit.!
Rahh.

i cant even fking feel happy for one wholeee day.
this sucks.
cry.

I studied history 2 hours yesterday.
I laughed alot yesterday.
I coundnt stop laughing this week.
I cried to sleep yesterday.
Its my lullaby.
I felt quite accomplised yesterday.
i still feel like running.
& stop running the race of life.
this life is like a game sometimes.
You're on my heart just like a tattoo.,

i miss..
i miss...
i miss...


i'vegotal`esymptonsofagirlwiabrkenheart,

今天我的世界不精彩。。
拼啊！

TOLD YOU IM GNA GET A BIG TEDDY.

heh. not mine.

4th cry of 2008.

No mtr what, Kristal taaaan cannot reach ten times.

abit retarded eh.

Count the number of cries./:

heh.

Got many photos.

Many things happend,& past.x)

The pictures shall do the talking.

i'm a happy girl for now.

No mtr what.`

& i truely am.[:

hees.

I love laughing till my abs hurt.

Upload some photos first.

Not everything down yet.

heh.

& its too late to apologise.

this whole post is dedicated to my freakin` bathtub.

i know you thinking apologise for what riightt?

but, i dont know eh.

just..just

like that la!

just really feel like saying sorry.);

委屈你了.

but i know its not too late to biao baaai![:

heh/.thick-smart.

MM-MM-MM.

from the bottom of my broken heart[:

XIEXIE NI.

世界的精彩都比不上你的微笑！ehemehem.stress.;><

有再多的遗憾

我不难过了，甚至试着往着幸福道路。

应为我终于知道我要什么了。我有目标。有奋斗的毅力。
hwaaat aaarh!

heeh,

& sweet ass pig brain xin![:
thanks.
study hard yupp.
good that you atcually sacrificed your sleeep??
miracle ayee[:
but, you know what.
做得好!
拼吧！[:

& i dont cry on the outside anymore..

Now or Never

And sometimes I can't really mention how I really feel inside because I tend to forget stuff the moment I start typing. Like I hv so many things to say, and so many different people to talk to,but then again I feel like if I were to tell that someone how I really feel, things might change because life isn't that simple and if I say something I meant but it sounds all wrong, everything might change between us.Because life goes on but feelings dont.Wait I'm not making sense.At all. Shit.)
----.

This morning high school musical played on disney channel again.Switched a million times but still can't find a better show.Sooo.Hehee.Watched it again.Roar.And..this time. I learnt so much. I listened to every word they said. And. whoa.

Once in a lifetime,
means theres no second chance.
So i believe that you and me
should grab it while we can
make it last forever.
And never live it by.
everyday of our lives,
want to find you there,
want to hold on tight,
gotta run while we are young, and keep the faith.
gotta use our voices and scream our loud.
together we will celebtrate


Dont wanna leave it all behind.


Its th bitter taste of losing everything you held on so dear.
We buld this up.
To watch it fall.
And we didnt try at all.

Now or Never

And sometimes I can't really mention how I really feel inside because I tend to forget stuff the moment I start typing. Like I hv so many things to say, and so many different people to talk to,but then again I feel like if I were to tell that someone how I really feel, things might change because life isn't that simple and if I say something I meant but it sounds all wrong, everything might change between us.Because life goes on but feelings dont.Wait I'm not making sense.At all. Shit.)
----.

This morning high school musical played on disney channel again.Switched a million times but still can't find a better show.Sooo.Hehee.Watched it again.Roar.And..this time. I learnt so much. I listened to every word they said. And. whoa.

Once in a lifetime,
means theres no second chance.
So i believe that you and me
should grab it while we can
make it last forever.
And never live it by.
everyday of our lives,
want to find you there,
want to hold on tight,
gotta run while we are young, and keep the faith.
gotta use our voices and scream our loud.
together we will celebtrate


Dont wanna leave it all behind.


Its th bitter taste of losing everything you held on so dear.
We buld this up.
To watch it fall.
And we didnt try at all.

UNDER CONSTRUCTION--.

Its the third day of school

& i already feeling so tired.

shit/:

But, its alright.

a moments pressure,

for a lifetime pleasure.

School's great.[: